This was surprisingly the last song I wrote on this project. The EP needed an introductory track that could set the scene for Blue & Green. I already had the beat made a while ago and decided to bring some life to it. I thought about about the happiest times in my childhood and how I fell in love with music. It was so organic and pure. Sometimes those memories feel like a dream and I wanted to capture that in the music.
Most notably, Ethan did his great work in composing the score for the skit towards the end.
Yellow was the track that we visited to be imaginative and try whatever we wanted without feeling like it was doing too much. It helped take the stress out of creating and light the fire whenever we felt like we couldn’t finish the EP.
I had a hard time understanding the nuance. I was taught to see the world black and white. When things occur that didn’t fit that mold, I had a hard time relating. I kept that kind of thinking for my whole life.
Colors reminds me to keep fighting the fight everyday and to appreciate life’s spectrum.
“Sob Story” was the first song I wrote with no intentions. During this time in 2019 I had my first job out of college, I was salaried, traveling and thought I was living the dream. But somehow I still felt very depressed and unsatisfied. I didn’t have much of an outlet so when my buddy Frantz gave me an opportunity to rap I took it. I hadn’t tried to rap since my high school days and I didn’t really think that I had much to say or that I was any good. But somehow the words just managed to come out naturally. We finished first track in about 15 minutes.
I try be a private person and addressing my pain in detail isn’t something that I felt comfortable doing. But sometimes it’s important to put things out in the open and clean out those skeletons in your closet. It’s essential in order to get to the next phase of life.
We did record a demo version with a different beat on SoundCloud(which I might reupload) but quickly deleted due to fears that somebody would hear it. But after 3 years, lots of therapy. I’m stopped being scared and decided to release myself from those mental shackles.
“God has made me fruitful in this land of my grief”(Gen.41:52)
Though not originally intended for the color project, this song became the cornerstone for the entire EP. Perfectly captures the essence of reclaiming a dream that was earlier differed.
“N.O.W” (No Other Way)
early 2020 when I went off the deep end to the present time. This was written from from the prospective of my inner parent speaking/motivating my inner child. I also started therapy for the first time in 2020 so I channeled a lot of my therapy sessions in the way that I wrote this song.
The original beat was made in December of 2021 and I never really had a use for it but took it to Ethan’s studio to polish it anyway.
The lyrics came to me piece by piece in 3 month increments over the past 2 years.
With the first set of lyrics coming in October 15, 2020 and the last bit(bridge) coming in may 5, 2022. A day after announcing the drop.
God always has a crazy way of aligning my work together in that manner. I think it’s his wittiest trait.